February 2010
i am so cold. So the heaters on full blassst…which is drying my throat out SO BAD.
FFFUUUUKKKKKK D;
January 2010
i wish to wake up with a completely different life. i want to live somewhere different. my fantasy life i guess…
my heart is going to sink a lot. i hate the feeling, but i should just get used to people fucking me over i guess… Anyways, i was thinking about my first tattoo. too many stupid kids get the dumbest tattoos, and then end up regretting it later. i want something simple, but that means so much. i want it in simple cursive font, and to say “all you need is love”. realistic.
Life is unexpected. Every form of it. Literal, and figuratively.
I was to Sams with my mom today, and got a call from my brother, and he told me their having a girl!!!! Im so thrilled! I wanted my nephew to be a girl, and now i can have a nephew and a niece! Im pretty sure their naming her Nala May. I wont say anything. I think Nala is really cute. Very unique. Kind of like i want to name my girl...
i want to stay at a cute old vintage bed and breakfast, and have coffee, tea and crumpets, sit on a balcony with a beautiful view, and have crazyyy party nights.
i want to take a road trip somewhere! but where?
i miss the way i “thought” things were.
im going to write much more…its what i do best.
no pyschiatrist can fix me. i think what i think. you cant change my brain.
Too much Too little time.
Like I said. Too much has been happening. Im like a bi polar freak right now. I feel one thing, i mean another. But im so tired, i just want to sleep. I can barely keep my eyes open, I think its probably the weather. And tomorrow I just want to stay home and watch Harry Potter. Nothing special.
Today was a beautiful day. The calm before the storm i guess. I just dont know anymore. I just dont...
“When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough...”
– Marilyn Monroe (via justbesplendid)
I know how it feels to be on the edge of your bed....
vibrant-bliss:
sugarspun:
nostalgicdreams:rewindmymind:(via poeticheartache)
I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to...
vibrant-bliss:
(via 365thoughts)
The beginning of everything is always the most...
vibrant-bliss:
shiftcomma3:
(via she-whispers)
100% agree with you woman.
Sometimes, to keep it together, you have to leave...
vibrant-bliss:
(via 365thoughts)
this hurts like hell.
I dont want to think anymore. I dont know how to feel anymore.
goodnight.
you see, thats the thing. I knew i would be out of the picture for a while. I knew i wouldnt be top priority for a while like i used to be. But i was always there for you. I would be there when you had nothing there, when you hit rock fucking bottom. i would be there when you started over. To get everything on track again. and im still here:(
Its gonna hit me hard tomorrow. right now my stomach...
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fuckyeahprettygirls:
(via xmissmisery)
I am only human; i can only give so much, cry so much, and i can only take so much. The person i thought i was to you is not there.
Bye Dad, Bye Armani, Bye Lucy, Bye Elivis, Bye old friends, Bye old self, Bye Old ways, Byebest friend. I guess it is true that when you really love someone, you have to let them go? This wasn’t my decision, but now its done. I have no choice, no fight. you...
i cant wait
Until you get lonely. When im not there and neither is all of them. Then you can see how it feels. As for now, i just dont have the energy to care anymore. Theres nothing for me to care about, theres nothing there anymore…
your different…
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im growing tired of you. im growing tired of routine. i need to spruce things up in my life. have that one little thing that makes me want to wake up every morning and experience NEW things.
i really need to start living in the here and NOW. i am thinking about the future too much. theres a time for realizing your goals, and then there is a time for stressing about them. i just need to do it. do what makes me happy, but KNOW what i am aiming for. and that i do know. i think about it all constantly. and i am done with the past. no more second chances, or nostalgia. it does nothing for...
